Preludes

A journey of self discovery. Seems like every other under-30 year olds are going crazy with it too. Finding a distinct style, personality, way of life or spiritual belief- we are all searching for something. However, we butt heads so much in the process, breaking each-other's hearts, hurting others and ruining friendships. We are hypocrites, who so easily see the problems in others yet have a hard time seeing our own. To being to see the true paths in life, one of the first things we need to get over is our own ego. That "inner warrior" within us that is so persistent in being the right one, or the better one. Because the world that revolves around us is the world we create, or as Shakespeare said, "thinking makes it so." However, us in our ignorance, ignore the possibility of the world at large- millions and millions of, who are too in their own web of lies, beliefs and some truths.

And if society, as a large, is so illusional, why follow any goal that is not from your heart and only your heart? Why conform to the masses when you can "step out of the box" and be the one who they all admire? Those in the spotlight- the ones we set our eyes on, did something different, chose their own path in life to travel. Not saying you need to be something or somebody else, but just- the person who you want to be.

Which will ultimately lead to the ideas of happiness. I am always running towards it, and at times only being able to just grasp it for a second. A promising study concludes that happiness comes from within and not from external forces, and not from trying to either make the universe fit into your life, or your life somehow conforming to the universe's.

The unfortunate thing is, the way the Western society portrays "growing up" (i.e going to college, doing this by-the-book, and that-by-the-book) almost holds us back in certain ways. For trying to be different so much, and be our own people, we all live lives of shocking similarities and share similar fears.

I guess all I can say is I am generally trying my best. But I feel pulled in so many different directions that it's hard to put enough time and effort into just one, to make it count. Or will all this working over time add up and be enough?