Packing...

Getting ready for NYC. Leave tomorrow at 9:30 at night. I'll blog about my trip after I get back :)

Rose-Colored Waters

Rose-Colored Waters
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It's not summertime until you see beautiful sunsets every night :)

Coming Up...

I've really gotten excited about this coming up month basically....I pick up my best friend from LAX on Tuesday and then Thursday night we are off to New York City! I will be walking down the streets and trying not to look completely like a tourist- camera clutched in my hand and looking around wildly. When I was little, it was my "favorite city" that I would always love in movies. I would tell people when I graduated high school I wanted to be living in new york, in a loft above a bakery, and go to NYU. That dream kind of crumbled when I got my roots in pretty deep in Ventura. I'm beginning to love and mark in my memory as significant events in my life, are simply when I get to leave my home town.
That being said- it really makes me sad thinking I might not always live in sunny lovely, california. There was nothing more than shocking when I did my first out-of-california trip (at the age of 15, mind you) when I realized not everyone got to experience how nice the weather is and beautiful the towns. Traveling tends to make me feel like I've lived in a little shoe box my whole life, where little by little, peep holes appear.
I think I sound completely lame. But I don't care. I'm excited!

Preludes

A journey of self discovery. Seems like every other under-30 year olds are going crazy with it too. Finding a distinct style, personality, way of life or spiritual belief- we are all searching for something. However, we butt heads so much in the process, breaking each-other's hearts, hurting others and ruining friendships. We are hypocrites, who so easily see the problems in others yet have a hard time seeing our own. To being to see the true paths in life, one of the first things we need to get over is our own ego. That "inner warrior" within us that is so persistent in being the right one, or the better one. Because the world that revolves around us is the world we create, or as Shakespeare said, "thinking makes it so." However, us in our ignorance, ignore the possibility of the world at large- millions and millions of, who are too in their own web of lies, beliefs and some truths.

And if society, as a large, is so illusional, why follow any goal that is not from your heart and only your heart? Why conform to the masses when you can "step out of the box" and be the one who they all admire? Those in the spotlight- the ones we set our eyes on, did something different, chose their own path in life to travel. Not saying you need to be something or somebody else, but just- the person who you want to be.

Which will ultimately lead to the ideas of happiness. I am always running towards it, and at times only being able to just grasp it for a second. A promising study concludes that happiness comes from within and not from external forces, and not from trying to either make the universe fit into your life, or your life somehow conforming to the universe's.

The unfortunate thing is, the way the Western society portrays "growing up" (i.e going to college, doing this by-the-book, and that-by-the-book) almost holds us back in certain ways. For trying to be different so much, and be our own people, we all live lives of shocking similarities and share similar fears.

I guess all I can say is I am generally trying my best. But I feel pulled in so many different directions that it's hard to put enough time and effort into just one, to make it count. Or will all this working over time add up and be enough?

Christian The Lion

Rustic

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I took this photo on a walk through Ojai's beautiful fields. June 2008.

Robyn "Handle Me"